Tuesday, December 4, 2012

venting

tonight my husband received a text message that was like a stab to my gut. 
no. not just a stab. like they twisted and dug the knife around to make sure that i felt as much pain as possible. and guess what... it worked.

YOU'VE HURT ME!
i feel like curling up in a ball and weeping because of you. 
are you happy now? have you a achieved what you wanted? or are you just going to keep stabbing and twisting until you can hopefully tear me apart?
if that's the case, you're going to be stabbing forever because it's never going to happen.

and in regards to me blogging about you. 
yeah... that's the point of a personal blog, to write about your personal life and feelings.
but only you would know that you're who i'm writing about, because i've made a point of leaving your identity out of it. believe me i want to drag your name through the dirt, because honestly, you deserve it
unfortunately my conscience won't allow me to do that.

i know you're angry because i don't just blindly do as you say and think as you'd like me to and that is never going to change. i know i'm a damn good wife and mother and i don't need your approval to make that true.


2 comments:

  1. You have no idea how happy this post made me.I wrote pretty much the same post the other day, b I detailed EVERYTHING that happened to me, I posted it and then took it down because I lost guts. I felt twisted in the gut by a friend earlier this week and it really hurt my feelings. You're not alone! If you ever want to vent more, email me, we can co-miserate! that's what friends are for ;)

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  2. Thanks! It's always nice to know you're not the only person having these crazy feelings :)

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